食堂里的桌椅

那张，留下了欢乐与笑声。
那张，曾经我们密谋暗举。
那张，饮料贩卖机前的桌子。

每天一起共进午餐，
每周一起戏耍嬉闹，
每年一起同窗求学。。。

让我无法遗忘的饭盒
那是无尽透明的思念

让我不住回味的杂饭
那时我们共同的回忆

谁也无法替代你们
在我心里的位置

游行

一个铁罐 在城市的深处 划过
它 以那优美的弧度 随着自然的抛物线
从 弹夹里 快速射出

飞行的目的地
有一群 为公正而行的公民
有一群 为真理而走的人民

还有一班 为正义而呐喊的热血青年
还有一班 为权益而奋斗的民主斗士

也有一些 碰巧经过的游人
也有一些 隔岸观火的商家

还有一个 奄奄一息的病人
还有一个 年过古稀的阿麽

Lots Of Love (3)

Alright! back to love...

these 2 years, i didnt debated anymore. but still, i am flocking with the crows. starting to learn how to care for others. i cant help but starting to care more of friends around me, observing their life and friends subconsiously. i forgotten how it started, but it seems that i was shot by cupid. compressing my emotion, i tried to live on as usual. but at last, i learnt the lesson that it is better to wait for the best time than to let your emotions get onto you. learnt it through the hard way.

but still, i'll persevere my love. to prove that i'm serious, to myself, to you and to everyone. that i'm no more hallucinator.

YEAH BABY!!! UNGU FTW!!!

A to Z

Anything we did contributes to our life.
Be grateful for things your friend did for you.
Compare and contrast yourself with others to find the special 'you'.
Do not fear to apologize.
Enlighten yourselves by reading my blog.
Friends are meant to be fuck-ed up.
Guesses are often unreal, so forget about it.
Hesitate more and you are digging your own grave.
Inspect yourself from time to time.
Jenius Ng in the making.
Kim Possible rocks.
Love more when you still can.
Make my day by leaving a comment down there.
Nothing can alter my love to you.
Ogawa like be to wish I.
Procastination kills the dog.
Quest for knowledge shouldn't fade.
Rusting occurs on iron, and my heart is made by steel.
Steal my brain dude!
Tell me what you're thinking, please.
U are the apple of my eyes.
View my thoughts and you'll die of shock.
Without you, i'm imperfect.
Xcluding you from my world will cause absolute emptiness.
Yell out and we'll feel much better.
Zero perspiration equals to zero gain.

Lots Of Love (2)

so, i mentioned about super friend right?

then, another female who changed my life. (yeah, i like exaggerating.XD) actually, i still didnt know the exact reason why did she refuse to talk to me for more than one year. but thats not the point. the point is, we are also bff now. :D i need to thank her, for teaching me to be 专一 and patience.

next, i made a decision which i believe, had reversed my secondary school life. I SHOULDNT HAD STOPPED DEBATING. yeah, i'll probably repeating this for numerous times in my life. BUT, as i said in the previous post, i didnt regret. because this decision brought me into different areas. which includes organizing events and competitions. i would like to thank everyone who taught me and gave me chance to perform during this period of time.

(to be cont again...)
(sorry la. or i'll overdose of love)

Lots Of Love

it's funny when you look backwards and think about stuffs you did while you're in primary. try to think, your 'first love'? haha.. actions that you thought were right and suitable that time seems more than childish when you look it in your perspective now.

yeah, we do funny things. and we'll find it out sooner or later. and the specialty of life is that we live it as ourselves. and the imperfections of life often comes out as the best part of it. so, i never should've regretted for anything i did. it may had cause unwanted changes in my life, but 塞翁失马，焉知非福？ and now, i'm happy with my current life, so why complain?

i have a girl friend who we used to be super friend. what we call puppy love. yeah, that kind. although we did nothing at all during that time of our life, but we seem to have a special bond. even we didnt talked to each others for months, we still can chat like hell and ignore others. for her, i can go through all those super mafan procedure to like a video in a like page. for nothing but just plain support. with her, we can eat and chat in the canteen together and laugh like nobody's around.

with her, i feel like i'm the 12 years old boy again. when we line up in the canteen to buy a 20cent jelly stick. when we buy mango gummies and put into our bottles to make DIY mango juice. when we eat lunch together every single afternoon. how i miss those days...

(to be cont...)

What do I want?

biao yan sai today was awesome. to be honest, after not debating for literally years, i find my performance today was actually acceptable. although still bad in point wise, but the sense on stage was lovely. it feels good to hear the applauses. nothing bad to feel back this feeling once in a while. but i certainly understand the fact that there are things that is more important for me.

the fact that i need to find a way to switzerland, hopefully ehl. the fact that i need to have the 'personality' that is 'suitable' for hospitality studies. the fact that swiss franc is abt 3 times to ringgit. the fact that i may not be studying form 6 anymore. the fact that i may need to work for few years before enrolling my masters.

i have big dreams. dreams that i wanted to realize it so much i can spent hours planning. but dreams may crashes at some point. this is where sacrifices come into play. have to set my priorities right.

but what is important to me?

to live a successful life? define successful dude.
to live a happy life? define happy dude.
to live a trouble-less life? you sound so irresponsible dude.

hard to deny that the thinking that a man should bear larger responsibilities in a family to support the family economically. i dont want to mess up my life for some movies, some girls, some interests... yes i sound so stubborn in this i-want-to-success stuff, but sorry, you're not my aim in life.

okay, i dont actually understand what this whole thing meant.
*this is just for relief purposes*